Missed last week. :( lol
So...
went to the fair twice... had some scones ... a krusty pup and a slushie.
you know, all the good stuff. LOL
anyway.... will post an additional post this weekend with actual stuff. LOL
favorite quote of the week:
I take walks because I want to be healthy...
but take along some m & m's because, come on, well it's me.
LOL
Thursday, September 24, 2015
Thursday, September 10, 2015
Oh there is just too much fun to be had!
Seriously.
Football season kicks off into Regular season this weekend and brings with it a return to Tailgate potlucks at work and watching games with dear friends. Yay! Blue Fridays return! Time to take a path back to the big one! Go Hawks!!
Also...
the big fair here opens tomorrow. I am somehow managing to go 3 times. I swear. Just 3. There was a ticket deal. One of those is free. And the family band I always love to watch is only doing 2 days of shows this year. could this be the end? So I have to go to the last day to see them. This weekend, with Manuel on Saturday... on the 21st with my parents and then the last day possibly with friends but probably by myself as it's her anniversary weekend.
Mmmm.... smells good in here. made a strawberry rhubarb pie and mini pizza monkey breads.
assembled 2 meat and cheese trays and mixed up a big bowl of galligum, dove melon and cantelope.
I'm ready. ... I'm IN... have Skittles will travel.
Football season kicks off into Regular season this weekend and brings with it a return to Tailgate potlucks at work and watching games with dear friends. Yay! Blue Fridays return! Time to take a path back to the big one! Go Hawks!!
Also...
the big fair here opens tomorrow. I am somehow managing to go 3 times. I swear. Just 3. There was a ticket deal. One of those is free. And the family band I always love to watch is only doing 2 days of shows this year. could this be the end? So I have to go to the last day to see them. This weekend, with Manuel on Saturday... on the 21st with my parents and then the last day possibly with friends but probably by myself as it's her anniversary weekend.
Mmmm.... smells good in here. made a strawberry rhubarb pie and mini pizza monkey breads.
assembled 2 meat and cheese trays and mixed up a big bowl of galligum, dove melon and cantelope.
I'm ready. ... I'm IN... have Skittles will travel.
Sunday, September 6, 2015
Labor Day???
already??
Spent a weekend with my family... lots of fun and late night shenanigans with my niece.
birthday party today, got my baby on a bit when holding the birthday girl's baby cousin. man, he's 9 months now and such a little sweetie.
Off tomorrow - Mariner's game and I think spending some time downtown.... maybe time for a massage again and then lunch at red robin first... we'll see.
:)
Spent a weekend with my family... lots of fun and late night shenanigans with my niece.
birthday party today, got my baby on a bit when holding the birthday girl's baby cousin. man, he's 9 months now and such a little sweetie.
Off tomorrow - Mariner's game and I think spending some time downtown.... maybe time for a massage again and then lunch at red robin first... we'll see.
:)
Tuesday, September 1, 2015
oops.... missed one
and it's already September.
and I got a little overtime pay for a strange summer storm and a couple early shifts this week was rather nice.
company coming Friday... little miss's birthday is this weekend and I'm hoping to drop off her present and watch the last preseason game on Thursday. guess I have to check my calendar. LOL
and I got a little overtime pay for a strange summer storm and a couple early shifts this week was rather nice.
company coming Friday... little miss's birthday is this weekend and I'm hoping to drop off her present and watch the last preseason game on Thursday. guess I have to check my calendar. LOL
Thursday, August 20, 2015
so...
I'm a tad bit hormonal LOL
My BFF is exploring relationship options (and couldn't be happier for her, honest)
but I'm basically here, feeling every lovely thing that comes with being reminded I'm a woman... grr, ew, don't ask.
and eating a coffee crisp, because I can ...
and I don't care.
And I started writing a 'Let it Go' parody that somewhat goes like this:
pay your bill, pay your bill...
we can shut you off and will,
I don't care what you're going to say,
it all comes down to you didn't pay...
it's not that cold now anyway...
*drops mic*
My BFF is exploring relationship options (and couldn't be happier for her, honest)
but I'm basically here, feeling every lovely thing that comes with being reminded I'm a woman... grr, ew, don't ask.
and eating a coffee crisp, because I can ...
and I don't care.
And I started writing a 'Let it Go' parody that somewhat goes like this:
pay your bill, pay your bill...
we can shut you off and will,
I don't care what you're going to say,
it all comes down to you didn't pay...
it's not that cold now anyway...
*drops mic*
Thursday, August 13, 2015
I ....
have returned from Canada with a suitcase half full of chocolate.
Yes.
I did say that.
that is all.
Yes.
I did say that.
that is all.
Tuesday, August 4, 2015
:)
It's fun times up in Canada...
Other than the sadness that overtakes it as one of Treen's good friends passed away on Thursday and it was only discovered when we stopped by on Friday to drop something off. It's been very rough for her.
He was a really nice guy.
we had dinner tonight with a group of people as we were going to take him out for an early birthday dinner.
It was a good time, seemed to be a nice way to remember him.
:)
Duchess bake shop tomorrow. mmm mmm mmm
Other than the sadness that overtakes it as one of Treen's good friends passed away on Thursday and it was only discovered when we stopped by on Friday to drop something off. It's been very rough for her.
He was a really nice guy.
we had dinner tonight with a group of people as we were going to take him out for an early birthday dinner.
It was a good time, seemed to be a nice way to remember him.
:)
Duchess bake shop tomorrow. mmm mmm mmm
Monday, July 27, 2015
Oops I ... did it again....
Awk...
I'm such a terrible blogger!
Okay, okay... this gap can actually be explained as the fact that I got a new computer instead of blogging for the following week... and then totally forgot to get my butt in gear this week. So... to recap... hmm... guess I should blog all week this week. Then I'd actually be caught up... hmm
yes... 9th... 16th... 23rd... and this week... hmph. blog might have to wait this week or I'll write it Thursday morning.
Fine. I'm in. LOL
Wait!
I blogged on the 9th. I'll be caught up Wednesday! LOL
So... watched the Minions. ate yummy macrons from the market ... got a new computer and have been spending my time, uploading stuff from the old one into one drive so that I can download/work with it later.
I'm donating the computer to the cause and letting my bff have it since all of hers are dying slow and painful deaths. Hmm... I wonder if the pictures will go through one drive too... hmm... maybe the fact they're all uploaded to facebook will just have to keep... hmm...
anyway...
back to making sure all my favorite sites are in place on this new toy. LOL
I'm such a terrible blogger!
Okay, okay... this gap can actually be explained as the fact that I got a new computer instead of blogging for the following week... and then totally forgot to get my butt in gear this week. So... to recap... hmm... guess I should blog all week this week. Then I'd actually be caught up... hmm
yes... 9th... 16th... 23rd... and this week... hmph. blog might have to wait this week or I'll write it Thursday morning.
Fine. I'm in. LOL
Wait!
I blogged on the 9th. I'll be caught up Wednesday! LOL
So... watched the Minions. ate yummy macrons from the market ... got a new computer and have been spending my time, uploading stuff from the old one into one drive so that I can download/work with it later.
I'm donating the computer to the cause and letting my bff have it since all of hers are dying slow and painful deaths. Hmm... I wonder if the pictures will go through one drive too... hmm... maybe the fact they're all uploaded to facebook will just have to keep... hmm...
anyway...
back to making sure all my favorite sites are in place on this new toy. LOL
Thursday, July 9, 2015
how did i manage to not blog last week?
Oh well... must have been the over excitement of camping coming up...
and the deep actual seriousness I achieved with that last blog post. which so clearly made an impact I still have no real followers or comments. lol
Which means today's blog - on time for once and again... just sinks back into shallow lameness. lol
here it is... wait for it...
Laughing at myself a bit today... After singing along with a rousing version of 'Let it Go' by PTX... and the last line... 'The cold never bothered me anyway...' hmm... yeah... turned down the air conditioning in the car because well... it was too cold and it did indeed bother me. HA! Guess I'll work on letting that go...
:)
Camping was awesome.
t-minus 20 days tomorrow until I land in Edmonton to try and take over the world... erm... spend a week with my bff.
Minion movie this weekend... :) also, new phone coming soon.
will blog again to make up for last week's mishap... :)
and the deep actual seriousness I achieved with that last blog post. which so clearly made an impact I still have no real followers or comments. lol
Which means today's blog - on time for once and again... just sinks back into shallow lameness. lol
here it is... wait for it...
Laughing at myself a bit today... After singing along with a rousing version of 'Let it Go' by PTX... and the last line... 'The cold never bothered me anyway...' hmm... yeah... turned down the air conditioning in the car because well... it was too cold and it did indeed bother me. HA! Guess I'll work on letting that go...
:)
Camping was awesome.
t-minus 20 days tomorrow until I land in Edmonton to try and take over the world... erm... spend a week with my bff.
Minion movie this weekend... :) also, new phone coming soon.
will blog again to make up for last week's mishap... :)
Sunday, June 28, 2015
R E S P E C T
In light of recent rulings... the surpreme court of the united states ruled that it is unconstitutional for any state to ban same sex marriages.
Okay, fine. good onya! :)
I struggle with this. It's fine. It honestly does not affect me or my beliefs. I worry about things though as left and right it seems people are willing to throw away friends ... on social media... for having their own opinion.
This is why totally - I am Switzerland. :)
My political, religious... whatever we want to call it... opinions are mine. I do not have to share them and they have no business in my relationships.
We don't have to like each other's opinions. but the fact that we all have the right and choice to have our own opinions does mean that we need to exercise the respect needed to respect that everyone is entitled to have their opinion.
It's our differences that makes it good to be friends. Why would I want to be friends with people that all share the same opinion? a bit of good debate or moments of being 'devil's advocate' are a good thing.
Because, if ... I do not agree with this as it's not a personal choice for me... doesn't mean I can't be happy and accepting of other's right to choose .. to love, to be involved intimately with, to marry whom they choose.
;)
I'm not married or dating... as a completely single person who doesn't have any isolated relationships of any kind of exclusive nature... maybe dating and marriage of any type offends me? Does that stop people from getting married? No... should how slightly bitter I become about seeing any type of couple anywhere sometimes affect my ability to be around ANYONE who is holding hands and displaying how in love they are?
Nope.
I'd have a really hard time going anywhere if that was the case.
I'll admit to having a deep soul searching moment or two at Disneyland last week. I live in Seattle. Gay couples are everywhere ... :) LOL... this doesn't offend me in real life. But I came face to face with a situation where I realized. In all my walking around town at home, I've either never realized or never paid enough attention to anyone I'm seeing to see if they were being openly affectionate with each other in public. I did see a couple around a few times at Disneyland that was. And I had a moment of thought that this was a 'family' experience and they were being inappropriate with how open and affectionate they were being.
But then I realized it was no different than the couples that were constantly holding up lines by making out as they waited for a ride. How could this be judged any different? It can't. My moment of uncomfortable awareness eased and passed... it isn't fair to judge.
I've been judged.
People sometimes hear that I went to a Christian college and that I am a Christian and they will assume that I won't like them or that i'll be preachy or forcing my religion down their throat. I am not that person.
If you want to talk about it or get into a religious discussion with me, I'll answer your questions .But life is too short for me to eliminate really nice and great people from my life simply because they have a choice they've made... lifestyle, orientation, religion or political... and their own opinions.... which always have to be made for yourself. I can't make your decisions for you. It is no worry or consequence (usually) to me for what you choose so why can't I just love your presence in my life and not be concerned about matters that are not my business?
Don't judge me for what you assume i'll be like.
It hurts.
I came across the theory back in high school... I don't have to like what you're doing but I do like you... a sort of 'hate the sin, love the sinner' sort of mentality. I've stuck to that.
Again... I'm Switzerland. If what we disagree on is too personal for us to be friends then I am more than happy to shelve my opinions and respect that you are entitled to yours... and only ask that you respect my choice to remain silent and not prod me into stating views and opinions I'd rather not rock the boat with.
RESPECT... find out what it means to me...
Bottom line.... the sun will always rise in the East and set in the West. Each day is a new day for learning. A hug from your niece is a great way to start or end a day and nieces should always be hugged whenever you have a chance to do so. Friends who become family are special and should always be cherished and are all the more reason that we should respect each other's choices and opinions. they make us unique.
Also... it's never a problem to simply eat ice cream for dinner.
:)
Okay, fine. good onya! :)
I struggle with this. It's fine. It honestly does not affect me or my beliefs. I worry about things though as left and right it seems people are willing to throw away friends ... on social media... for having their own opinion.
This is why totally - I am Switzerland. :)
My political, religious... whatever we want to call it... opinions are mine. I do not have to share them and they have no business in my relationships.
We don't have to like each other's opinions. but the fact that we all have the right and choice to have our own opinions does mean that we need to exercise the respect needed to respect that everyone is entitled to have their opinion.
It's our differences that makes it good to be friends. Why would I want to be friends with people that all share the same opinion? a bit of good debate or moments of being 'devil's advocate' are a good thing.
Because, if ... I do not agree with this as it's not a personal choice for me... doesn't mean I can't be happy and accepting of other's right to choose .. to love, to be involved intimately with, to marry whom they choose.
;)
I'm not married or dating... as a completely single person who doesn't have any isolated relationships of any kind of exclusive nature... maybe dating and marriage of any type offends me? Does that stop people from getting married? No... should how slightly bitter I become about seeing any type of couple anywhere sometimes affect my ability to be around ANYONE who is holding hands and displaying how in love they are?
Nope.
I'd have a really hard time going anywhere if that was the case.
I'll admit to having a deep soul searching moment or two at Disneyland last week. I live in Seattle. Gay couples are everywhere ... :) LOL... this doesn't offend me in real life. But I came face to face with a situation where I realized. In all my walking around town at home, I've either never realized or never paid enough attention to anyone I'm seeing to see if they were being openly affectionate with each other in public. I did see a couple around a few times at Disneyland that was. And I had a moment of thought that this was a 'family' experience and they were being inappropriate with how open and affectionate they were being.
But then I realized it was no different than the couples that were constantly holding up lines by making out as they waited for a ride. How could this be judged any different? It can't. My moment of uncomfortable awareness eased and passed... it isn't fair to judge.
I've been judged.
People sometimes hear that I went to a Christian college and that I am a Christian and they will assume that I won't like them or that i'll be preachy or forcing my religion down their throat. I am not that person.
If you want to talk about it or get into a religious discussion with me, I'll answer your questions .But life is too short for me to eliminate really nice and great people from my life simply because they have a choice they've made... lifestyle, orientation, religion or political... and their own opinions.... which always have to be made for yourself. I can't make your decisions for you. It is no worry or consequence (usually) to me for what you choose so why can't I just love your presence in my life and not be concerned about matters that are not my business?
Don't judge me for what you assume i'll be like.
It hurts.
I came across the theory back in high school... I don't have to like what you're doing but I do like you... a sort of 'hate the sin, love the sinner' sort of mentality. I've stuck to that.
Again... I'm Switzerland. If what we disagree on is too personal for us to be friends then I am more than happy to shelve my opinions and respect that you are entitled to yours... and only ask that you respect my choice to remain silent and not prod me into stating views and opinions I'd rather not rock the boat with.
RESPECT... find out what it means to me...
Bottom line.... the sun will always rise in the East and set in the West. Each day is a new day for learning. A hug from your niece is a great way to start or end a day and nieces should always be hugged whenever you have a chance to do so. Friends who become family are special and should always be cherished and are all the more reason that we should respect each other's choices and opinions. they make us unique.
Also... it's never a problem to simply eat ice cream for dinner.
:)
Saturday, June 27, 2015
HOT HOT HOT
It's finally Summer around here.
and by that I mean it's going to be in the 90's all weekend and really high temperatures next week and weekend as well.
Which means I am completely relieved that I will be down on the Oregon coast next weekend, camping with the family. It's going to be unbelievably unbearable here.
I'm not sure if it's been a good thing or not that I am already starting my dinner with an ice cream appetizer but when I put it in perspective - I worked all day... didn't have an afternoon snack and it's the best sounding thing at that time of day. I'm not usually hungry so it does actually work. :)
Not drinking soda until 7/.19... this just might kill me. work has been crazy and I wanted diet coke soooooo bad.... *sigh*
On the plus side... pretty much have my bag packed for camping. At least a food bag and clothes ... LOL
and by that I mean it's going to be in the 90's all weekend and really high temperatures next week and weekend as well.
Which means I am completely relieved that I will be down on the Oregon coast next weekend, camping with the family. It's going to be unbelievably unbearable here.
I'm not sure if it's been a good thing or not that I am already starting my dinner with an ice cream appetizer but when I put it in perspective - I worked all day... didn't have an afternoon snack and it's the best sounding thing at that time of day. I'm not usually hungry so it does actually work. :)
Not drinking soda until 7/.19... this just might kill me. work has been crazy and I wanted diet coke soooooo bad.... *sigh*
On the plus side... pretty much have my bag packed for camping. At least a food bag and clothes ... LOL
Saturday, June 20, 2015
I'm so lame...
I've discussed this before... LOL
I didn't blog last week before my vacation because I was too tired/busy/excited.
And then I still haven't officially blogged this week...
Oh well!
I will embrace my short comings and blog today and cross my fingers for tomorrow. :) Monday at the latest. In other words - three blogs within the next week.
Vacation at Disneyland was awesome. :) My niece has this adorable joy/terror/excited/scared laugh/scream that comes out on rides ... it's just so adorable. :) Love that kid...
Food was good. :) as always. I didn't really find anything that I ate that I was disappointed in. which is always good.
:)
I didn't blog last week before my vacation because I was too tired/busy/excited.
And then I still haven't officially blogged this week...
Oh well!
I will embrace my short comings and blog today and cross my fingers for tomorrow. :) Monday at the latest. In other words - three blogs within the next week.
Vacation at Disneyland was awesome. :) My niece has this adorable joy/terror/excited/scared laugh/scream that comes out on rides ... it's just so adorable. :) Love that kid...
Food was good. :) as always. I didn't really find anything that I ate that I was disappointed in. which is always good.
:)
Sunday, June 7, 2015
It's almost here... it's almost here
California, here I come... well
Saturday.
Almost packed.
Just got to finish up the cleaning.
Survive a week at work...
and not oversleep the alarms on Saturday morning since my shuttle comes between 4:40 and 5 am.
And then it's off to the Happiest place on earth!! Yay!
Saturday.
Almost packed.
Just got to finish up the cleaning.
Survive a week at work...
and not oversleep the alarms on Saturday morning since my shuttle comes between 4:40 and 5 am.
And then it's off to the Happiest place on earth!! Yay!
Saturday, May 30, 2015
lame...
Everything seems to be working against me this week.
fridge died on Monday and it took until thursday for my food to be in the same apartment with me.
Oh, also outlet burned out an a wire was broken so yeah, good thing I didn't burn up even...
Now, my computer has been acting up since Thursday and seems to be determined to only let me do one thing every 20 minutes online.
cross your fingers this saves and then posts. *sigh*
Two weeks until Vacation... darn it, i have to pack!!
fridge died on Monday and it took until thursday for my food to be in the same apartment with me.
Oh, also outlet burned out an a wire was broken so yeah, good thing I didn't burn up even...
Now, my computer has been acting up since Thursday and seems to be determined to only let me do one thing every 20 minutes online.
cross your fingers this saves and then posts. *sigh*
Two weeks until Vacation... darn it, i have to pack!!
Sunday, May 24, 2015
fun weekend!!
Spent the last two days with my brother, sister in law and niece.
We had a great time playing tourist and of course having a repeat of girls weekend as Monica stayed with me.
Which meant that we 'snuck' out on Friday night after they got here and went to see Pitch Perfect 2. I love the fact that we can bond over our love of acapella music and groups and things like that ... it was a great call to go watch the movie. She never would have made it last night. LOL
Lots of fun yesterday - space needle, argosy tour and went through the glass gardens at Seattle center - AMAZING. glass artistry is amazing and wow... this has to be seen.
been nibbling on the fudge we got... yum!!
today, breakfast first before going back up in the space needle and a little time spent at EMP before lunch - BBQ and mac n cheese, super yummy!
We found a cannoli place by where we parked - omg, I'm seriously going to be in trouble. I thought the one I ate was good, it was the traditional with chocolate. still have 5 more to eat but oh yeah, I'm going to find myself making time to swing up there and get cannoli when I'm in town to get my mani pedi! LOL
didn't take too long to get home.
Just gotta take care of the rest of my strawberries! :)
We had a great time playing tourist and of course having a repeat of girls weekend as Monica stayed with me.
Which meant that we 'snuck' out on Friday night after they got here and went to see Pitch Perfect 2. I love the fact that we can bond over our love of acapella music and groups and things like that ... it was a great call to go watch the movie. She never would have made it last night. LOL
Lots of fun yesterday - space needle, argosy tour and went through the glass gardens at Seattle center - AMAZING. glass artistry is amazing and wow... this has to be seen.
been nibbling on the fudge we got... yum!!
today, breakfast first before going back up in the space needle and a little time spent at EMP before lunch - BBQ and mac n cheese, super yummy!
We found a cannoli place by where we parked - omg, I'm seriously going to be in trouble. I thought the one I ate was good, it was the traditional with chocolate. still have 5 more to eat but oh yeah, I'm going to find myself making time to swing up there and get cannoli when I'm in town to get my mani pedi! LOL
didn't take too long to get home.
Just gotta take care of the rest of my strawberries! :)
Sunday, May 17, 2015
yeah... i'm totally lack of true deep content girl.
Here I am again - late but posting...
just a quick recap...
Pitch Perfect 2 - hilarious.
Baseball last night, not so great but good to be at a baseball game with a friend.
GOTTA Clean... company comes on Friday.
Gotta Budget... vacation is in 26 days.
ack!! I fully embrace my procrastination but I hate that I've been giving myself stress about it.
oh yeah, Gotta Walk, gotta diet... I'm not at all pleased with progress this year. it's so NOT a good weight loss year so far.
gotta fix a few things.
just a quick recap...
Pitch Perfect 2 - hilarious.
Baseball last night, not so great but good to be at a baseball game with a friend.
GOTTA Clean... company comes on Friday.
Gotta Budget... vacation is in 26 days.
ack!! I fully embrace my procrastination but I hate that I've been giving myself stress about it.
oh yeah, Gotta Walk, gotta diet... I'm not at all pleased with progress this year. it's so NOT a good weight loss year so far.
gotta fix a few things.
Sunday, May 10, 2015
Another week...
another blog...
I have to re-evaluate this... I feel like I'm seriously lacking in content lately.
then again, I've been exhausted from work and it just doesn't feel like I have much going on to talk about.
so yes... let's leave it at that.
33 days until vacation... Disneyland here I come...
less than two weeks until company coming for Memorial day weekend.
housecleaning is high and heavy on the list this week and next...
hung up the magic mesh today, big check mark ...
I have to re-evaluate this... I feel like I'm seriously lacking in content lately.
then again, I've been exhausted from work and it just doesn't feel like I have much going on to talk about.
so yes... let's leave it at that.
33 days until vacation... Disneyland here I come...
less than two weeks until company coming for Memorial day weekend.
housecleaning is high and heavy on the list this week and next...
hung up the magic mesh today, big check mark ...
Saturday, May 2, 2015
it's been a week already?
like seriously longest week ever...
but... watched Avengers so that mostly made up for it.
read a book this week that I'd read growing up... found myself shocked to find that I was so emotionally tied to the character... things in the book are so much more impactful at the age I am now as I consider where my life has ended up.
It was a surprising realization.
something to mull over...
but... watched Avengers so that mostly made up for it.
read a book this week that I'd read growing up... found myself shocked to find that I was so emotionally tied to the character... things in the book are so much more impactful at the age I am now as I consider where my life has ended up.
It was a surprising realization.
something to mull over...
Sunday, April 26, 2015
late catch up post...
got just a quick check in...
just got back from Girls Weekend with my niece, we had a good time. and are both soooo excited for Disneyland in June.
Gotta catch up on things now, have to work tomorrow... and it's time to go red!
Less expensive to dye my hair red than to buy a red wig. I will be cosplaying Black Widow - from the mall scenes in Captain America: The Winter Soldier... at the Avengers: Age of Ultron movie on Thursday night.
:)
just got back from Girls Weekend with my niece, we had a good time. and are both soooo excited for Disneyland in June.
Gotta catch up on things now, have to work tomorrow... and it's time to go red!
Less expensive to dye my hair red than to buy a red wig. I will be cosplaying Black Widow - from the mall scenes in Captain America: The Winter Soldier... at the Avengers: Age of Ultron movie on Thursday night.
:)
Thursday, April 16, 2015
Not much...
Going on...
just a quick post.
new shift started this week and OOOOOH man... I remember now why I hate getting off after 4 pm.
traffic sucks big time. *sigh* Oh well... guess I will have to wait it out until the next one and I can shift back again...
So... made a pasta salad for bible study tomorrow night ... looking forward to grabbing a few moments with my sista friend Gina...
Overtime work for emails on Saturday from 7 to 11:30... long enough for a break but still short enough to not require a lunch LOL the pay will be a welcome addition to my next check.
Girls weekend with my niece next weekend... looking forward to having some fun and girly time together. which means perhaps an early post next week or one on Sunday when I'm home again.
later!!
just a quick post.
new shift started this week and OOOOOH man... I remember now why I hate getting off after 4 pm.
traffic sucks big time. *sigh* Oh well... guess I will have to wait it out until the next one and I can shift back again...
So... made a pasta salad for bible study tomorrow night ... looking forward to grabbing a few moments with my sista friend Gina...
Overtime work for emails on Saturday from 7 to 11:30... long enough for a break but still short enough to not require a lunch LOL the pay will be a welcome addition to my next check.
Girls weekend with my niece next weekend... looking forward to having some fun and girly time together. which means perhaps an early post next week or one on Sunday when I'm home again.
later!!
Sunday, April 12, 2015
Blog indecision...
I am late with this week's blog because I couldn't decide what to write about. So I'm shelving the two ideas that would take more thought in hopes of putting one of them up on Thursday for my normal blog day. :)
Instead... you get... BASEBALL! #HAPPYFELIXDAY #ALLRISEFORKINGFELIX
And a basic general thought for my day. LOL
It's the 2nd felix day of the year. He won the opener, they lost three games in a row and finally won again yesterday and it's time for him to go out and be himself again. YAY! I love baseball season and love it even more when it comes around to being the day for Felix Hernandez to pitch. which is today.
Which is where today's lunch indecision comes from, do I want to make a more baseball appropriate lunch - I could do nachos... or actually follow through on the idea I had about making up a lemon chicken dish in the crockpot.
Hmm maybe nachos.
I could do the chicken dish in the crockpot for dinner tomorrow. My shift changes and I'm off a bit later so it wouldn't be a bad idea to have something bubbling away that only needs some rice heated up or some pasta thrown into it to make the dish. And it would give me a chance to prep it more tonight. Hmm... yes. That may be the best idea. I could always make it a good feeling too and go pick up a slice of pizza first and then nachos later.
Hmm... perhaps. Better get that taco meat out of the freezer now though...
I'm out... blogging on time next week, I hope!!
Instead... you get... BASEBALL! #HAPPYFELIXDAY #ALLRISEFORKINGFELIX
And a basic general thought for my day. LOL
It's the 2nd felix day of the year. He won the opener, they lost three games in a row and finally won again yesterday and it's time for him to go out and be himself again. YAY! I love baseball season and love it even more when it comes around to being the day for Felix Hernandez to pitch. which is today.
Which is where today's lunch indecision comes from, do I want to make a more baseball appropriate lunch - I could do nachos... or actually follow through on the idea I had about making up a lemon chicken dish in the crockpot.
Hmm maybe nachos.
I could do the chicken dish in the crockpot for dinner tomorrow. My shift changes and I'm off a bit later so it wouldn't be a bad idea to have something bubbling away that only needs some rice heated up or some pasta thrown into it to make the dish. And it would give me a chance to prep it more tonight. Hmm... yes. That may be the best idea. I could always make it a good feeling too and go pick up a slice of pizza first and then nachos later.
Hmm... perhaps. Better get that taco meat out of the freezer now though...
I'm out... blogging on time next week, I hope!!
Thursday, April 2, 2015
Can't help it...
I totally eat like a jr high kid...
and I do need to do better about it but today, gotta give into my cravings and have pizza fries and ranch for dinner.
Who's bright idea was it to put a pizza place selling slices next to a McDonalds?
In my defense... I walked.
LOL
Burned a few calories before eating.
Should have had a milkshake with it but diet coke is the more appropriate choice for tonight. Didn't eat all the fries and have a slice of pizza for a different meal.
But... going to have to do low calorie dieting tomorrow. no soda, smoothie and salad... fruit. ... no candy or fried foods.
I think I can do that for a day.
*shrug* if not... there's a slice of pizza with my name on it.
and I do need to do better about it but today, gotta give into my cravings and have pizza fries and ranch for dinner.
Who's bright idea was it to put a pizza place selling slices next to a McDonalds?
In my defense... I walked.
LOL
Burned a few calories before eating.
Should have had a milkshake with it but diet coke is the more appropriate choice for tonight. Didn't eat all the fries and have a slice of pizza for a different meal.
But... going to have to do low calorie dieting tomorrow. no soda, smoothie and salad... fruit. ... no candy or fried foods.
I think I can do that for a day.
*shrug* if not... there's a slice of pizza with my name on it.
Saturday, March 28, 2015
Just a quick check in...
Interesting. I thought I'd saved a blog post last night.
Clearly blogger was having trouble.
No big thoughts or any thoughts too much today... Just really enjoying getting to know people better.
Friday night bible studies are completely a great part of my week when they happen, they mean time spent with my friend right after work and then several hours of sharing food and fellowship and getting to know people better.
I feel so loved after these events. I really appreciate how open and friendly... family like... people are. It honestly does make me feel like I've known everyone forever and being who I am... and how my life is... it is wonderful.
Clearly blogger was having trouble.
No big thoughts or any thoughts too much today... Just really enjoying getting to know people better.
Friday night bible studies are completely a great part of my week when they happen, they mean time spent with my friend right after work and then several hours of sharing food and fellowship and getting to know people better.
I feel so loved after these events. I really appreciate how open and friendly... family like... people are. It honestly does make me feel like I've known everyone forever and being who I am... and how my life is... it is wonderful.
Saturday, March 21, 2015
Movie Musings
Short post this week, thought about blogging all week and then my standard blog days got way busy and I was tired.
lol
no excuses. I'll do better going forward but it is Saturday which means it still counts which to be completely honest, this is the one goal I made for this year that hasn't taken a scenic route... one blog post a week. yay me. wish it had been the soda one but I'm still working on it.
It's March which means that it is pretty much the beginning of my movie season. That is, the time of year where I have one movie that I desperately want to watch coming out about every other week.
It did start a few weeks ago with Jupiter Ascending. Good movie by the way. excellent.
This week - Insurgent. Good movie. Totally ... loosely based on the book because when I got home and checked... um yes. hardly any of the move actually happened in the book. And for this book purist to say that I enjoyed the movie even more this way is a huge step... don't need to see it again, even if Theo James as Four is totally hot... but that is the way I roll when it comes to these movies. LOL
Next up? Fast and furious 7... where I am going to be packing practically a whole box of tissue with me as we view the last movie offering from Paul Walker. And I swear, people of the academy... if you don't choose to nominate him for an Oscar for this film, out of compassion and sympathy because gee whiz, it was a series... you probably should. I anticipate good things from this movie. :)
After that? Well, it's at least Avengers and then Pitch Perfect. I am saving Cinderella for the end of april so hopefully the plans all go right and it's still in theaters.
lol
no excuses. I'll do better going forward but it is Saturday which means it still counts which to be completely honest, this is the one goal I made for this year that hasn't taken a scenic route... one blog post a week. yay me. wish it had been the soda one but I'm still working on it.
It's March which means that it is pretty much the beginning of my movie season. That is, the time of year where I have one movie that I desperately want to watch coming out about every other week.
It did start a few weeks ago with Jupiter Ascending. Good movie by the way. excellent.
This week - Insurgent. Good movie. Totally ... loosely based on the book because when I got home and checked... um yes. hardly any of the move actually happened in the book. And for this book purist to say that I enjoyed the movie even more this way is a huge step... don't need to see it again, even if Theo James as Four is totally hot... but that is the way I roll when it comes to these movies. LOL
Next up? Fast and furious 7... where I am going to be packing practically a whole box of tissue with me as we view the last movie offering from Paul Walker. And I swear, people of the academy... if you don't choose to nominate him for an Oscar for this film, out of compassion and sympathy because gee whiz, it was a series... you probably should. I anticipate good things from this movie. :)
After that? Well, it's at least Avengers and then Pitch Perfect. I am saving Cinderella for the end of april so hopefully the plans all go right and it's still in theaters.
Friday, March 13, 2015
What Do I know of Holy... finally... a song analysis post... :)
The whole idea behind starting this blog and having theme songs this year was supposed to help me analyze myself and go deep in exploring my feelings. yada yada yada.
But ...
I haven't exactly felt as inspired to open myself up like that lately. as in the entire year. seriously.
Had the thought for this while driving home for Christmas and now it's March 13th... I'm posting a day late this week but it's okay... I can let that go. :) lol ... and I am forcing myself a bit because I really truly want to apply this song to my life and have things make sense. So... here we go. not the whole song at once but the first verse at least. :) just a little something deep ... ish... (oh and minor freak out though - I held a baby tonight. yay me. and yay him for being such a precious little guy. 3 or 4 weeks between holding him is too long though. :( )
This song is by Addison Road - and it speaks to me any time I hear it. I'm just usually not in the right spot to write anything down about it.
I made you promises a thousand times.
I tried to hear from heaven, but I talked the whole time
I think I made you too small, I never feared you at all, no
If you touched my face, would I know you?
Looked into my eyes, could I behold you?
Okay. first line first... but first background. It's a conversation with God. It's a truly introspective thought provoking song about having a conversation with God about figuring out just what we know about him - What do I know of Holy?? (Serious... this song brings me to my knees every time. just hits you...)
I made you promises a thousand times ...
I have tried. Tried so hard to rid my life of the sin that I can easily fall into when left to my own devices. Because let's face it, I'm single and not getting any younger and the things I thought my life would be have not necessarily turned out the way I'd been hoping they would.
I am not totally disappointed by this. I do find things and reasons in my life that make me happy - holding babies for instance. Going on the vacations that I want to go on. Making my own choices and my own decisions and knowing that for the most part, my decisions are mine. the results and consequences are mine. All on me. Can't blame anyone else for what happens to me when you're the one and only person in charge of the decisions. So yes. When I go on a kick to reinvent myself, I make promises. that are slightly hard to keep myself accountable for because I am just one person ... so I make promises to God. I think we all do. I'll do this if you let me do that. I will change this piece of me because it will make me feel better and less guilty of the things I want to hide in the depths of my heart and not let you - God- into them.
I tried to hear from heaven, but I talked the whole time.
Be still and know that I am God. That verse comes to mind because in spite of all the time I spend by myself... lost in my own thoughts... I have a hard time being still. And it's still not just in sitting still and not moving but in calming yourself and not thinking.
No TV... no computer, kindle or phone. No Trivia Crack or catching up on At Midnight or a version of NCIS. No books that allow me to live vicariously through them as I read about things I long about... yes, totally a closet, secret trashy romance novel. Yay me for writing it down as an admission.
Asking or praying about things is always a good idea but if you are not listening to the answer... not listening FOR the answer before moving forward, well... somehow, some day... some where... it will be such an apparent directive from heaven that I will have no choice but to fall silent and truly listen.
I think I made you too small, I never feared you at all, no
I grew up in the church. I went to youth group and summer church camp and sang in the church choir.
I went to a Christian college and hold a double degree in Bible and Church Music Ministry. I played piano for chapel and worship services. I sang ... I participated... I listened to only Christian music...
I had ... and still have... a hard time giving a testimony. Everyone else had these testimonies... falling away from God... drugs/alcohol/intimacy ... issues that kept them away from God until one day they woke up and realized that wasn't what they wanted to be doing with their life... that nothing felt right without God and they came back to him.
I think I struggled with this because I never had those moments. Heck, I'm 40 and I still haven't had those moments. ... sure ... I've spent more time out of church than in church over the last 5 years. I think I let that happen because - surprise surprise... I didn't fear God... I have his presence in my life and I know he loves me and forgives me when I ask for forgiveness for straying away.
I lost focus. I was going to churches that I felt more comfortable and people knew me and that was all fine until it felt stifling. That people just wanted to know what was going on with me not because they cared but because I perceived that they wanted to hurt me with that knowledge, that they would immediately gossip about me somehow and that made me feel uncomfortable and I chose to just be busy and find other things. My testimony in college ended up being about how I felt I wore a mask when I was at church because I was an Elder's kid and to be honest, there was more pressure on that then on being a preachers kid because the Elders are the ones that are supposed to be making the judgement calls when it comes to what the preacher ... and the image and reflection that the kids give towards the preacher... are up to the elders to discipline and it always felt heavy to feel like I couldn't screw up or act out because it would reflect badly on my dad.
If you touched my face, would I know you?
The bare bones admission to getting to know myself- the key, if you will, to this whole finding myself experience 2015 ... is... that over the past few years, when I lost my identity in the church because I no longer was needed to play the piano .... singing became more of a chore because someone else got the job I wanted and now ... was being forced to spend time under their extended leadership because I resented them and everything that was being pulled out at the time. I can say it now. I resented it big time, it felt like a huge slap in the face.
a betrayal.
I was the college senior, wanting and needing to land this job to prove that what I've learned wasn't for nothing. Only to have the job yanked away... given to the faculty advisor who was supposed to be advising me of how to turn my internship into a job. *sigh*
oh I struggled with that resentment for years. at the time it was months but oh how frustrating. As I started to come out of those feelings... it just skewed my whole vision of what life was supposed to be and how I was supposed to minister to people... something that I've barely managed to be able to start to figure out now- 18 years later.
I am still hesitant to confident that I would know God's touch if he touched me on the face. Touching a face is so intimate. It's a connection. Something a single girl longs for - contact with someone who loves you.
Looked into my eyes, could I behold you?
would that touch on the face lead into turning my eyes up to see who was there... would I be allowed to view God in all his glory?
Am I honestly that worthy?
Be still and know that I am God...
I know this. I do not need to look into God's eyes or have him look into mine to see him in everything.
Sunrise and sunset. the joy of a child's gleeful laugh at something that tickles their funny bone. holding a baby close and cuddling them... kissing soft baby foreheads and soothing them when they fuss. Because seriously? what's closer to God than a newborn?
....
Good friends who are your shoulder to lean on and you are their shoulder to lean on in return.
You can choose to see God in everything... to seek him out ... to take off your shoes in that holy place when you find it - I used to love taking long walks along the beach just before sunset. the waves crashing ... stars starting to twinkle in the sky above as the moon started to rise. Heading inland to slip into the back rows of bonfire to sing and commune with others in the presence of God.
This song lays into you... cuts you to shreds when you aren't feeling close enough to God in your deepest heart of hearts. He sees those spots you know... and choses to ignore then until you are ready and willing to bring them to him and lay them at his feet and ask for forgivness.
But ...
I haven't exactly felt as inspired to open myself up like that lately. as in the entire year. seriously.
Had the thought for this while driving home for Christmas and now it's March 13th... I'm posting a day late this week but it's okay... I can let that go. :) lol ... and I am forcing myself a bit because I really truly want to apply this song to my life and have things make sense. So... here we go. not the whole song at once but the first verse at least. :) just a little something deep ... ish... (oh and minor freak out though - I held a baby tonight. yay me. and yay him for being such a precious little guy. 3 or 4 weeks between holding him is too long though. :( )
This song is by Addison Road - and it speaks to me any time I hear it. I'm just usually not in the right spot to write anything down about it.
I made you promises a thousand times.
I tried to hear from heaven, but I talked the whole time
I think I made you too small, I never feared you at all, no
If you touched my face, would I know you?
Looked into my eyes, could I behold you?
Okay. first line first... but first background. It's a conversation with God. It's a truly introspective thought provoking song about having a conversation with God about figuring out just what we know about him - What do I know of Holy?? (Serious... this song brings me to my knees every time. just hits you...)
I made you promises a thousand times ...
I have tried. Tried so hard to rid my life of the sin that I can easily fall into when left to my own devices. Because let's face it, I'm single and not getting any younger and the things I thought my life would be have not necessarily turned out the way I'd been hoping they would.
I am not totally disappointed by this. I do find things and reasons in my life that make me happy - holding babies for instance. Going on the vacations that I want to go on. Making my own choices and my own decisions and knowing that for the most part, my decisions are mine. the results and consequences are mine. All on me. Can't blame anyone else for what happens to me when you're the one and only person in charge of the decisions. So yes. When I go on a kick to reinvent myself, I make promises. that are slightly hard to keep myself accountable for because I am just one person ... so I make promises to God. I think we all do. I'll do this if you let me do that. I will change this piece of me because it will make me feel better and less guilty of the things I want to hide in the depths of my heart and not let you - God- into them.
I tried to hear from heaven, but I talked the whole time.
Be still and know that I am God. That verse comes to mind because in spite of all the time I spend by myself... lost in my own thoughts... I have a hard time being still. And it's still not just in sitting still and not moving but in calming yourself and not thinking.
No TV... no computer, kindle or phone. No Trivia Crack or catching up on At Midnight or a version of NCIS. No books that allow me to live vicariously through them as I read about things I long about... yes, totally a closet, secret trashy romance novel. Yay me for writing it down as an admission.
Asking or praying about things is always a good idea but if you are not listening to the answer... not listening FOR the answer before moving forward, well... somehow, some day... some where... it will be such an apparent directive from heaven that I will have no choice but to fall silent and truly listen.
I think I made you too small, I never feared you at all, no
I grew up in the church. I went to youth group and summer church camp and sang in the church choir.
I went to a Christian college and hold a double degree in Bible and Church Music Ministry. I played piano for chapel and worship services. I sang ... I participated... I listened to only Christian music...
I had ... and still have... a hard time giving a testimony. Everyone else had these testimonies... falling away from God... drugs/alcohol/intimacy ... issues that kept them away from God until one day they woke up and realized that wasn't what they wanted to be doing with their life... that nothing felt right without God and they came back to him.
I think I struggled with this because I never had those moments. Heck, I'm 40 and I still haven't had those moments. ... sure ... I've spent more time out of church than in church over the last 5 years. I think I let that happen because - surprise surprise... I didn't fear God... I have his presence in my life and I know he loves me and forgives me when I ask for forgiveness for straying away.
I lost focus. I was going to churches that I felt more comfortable and people knew me and that was all fine until it felt stifling. That people just wanted to know what was going on with me not because they cared but because I perceived that they wanted to hurt me with that knowledge, that they would immediately gossip about me somehow and that made me feel uncomfortable and I chose to just be busy and find other things. My testimony in college ended up being about how I felt I wore a mask when I was at church because I was an Elder's kid and to be honest, there was more pressure on that then on being a preachers kid because the Elders are the ones that are supposed to be making the judgement calls when it comes to what the preacher ... and the image and reflection that the kids give towards the preacher... are up to the elders to discipline and it always felt heavy to feel like I couldn't screw up or act out because it would reflect badly on my dad.
If you touched my face, would I know you?
The bare bones admission to getting to know myself- the key, if you will, to this whole finding myself experience 2015 ... is... that over the past few years, when I lost my identity in the church because I no longer was needed to play the piano .... singing became more of a chore because someone else got the job I wanted and now ... was being forced to spend time under their extended leadership because I resented them and everything that was being pulled out at the time. I can say it now. I resented it big time, it felt like a huge slap in the face.
a betrayal.
I was the college senior, wanting and needing to land this job to prove that what I've learned wasn't for nothing. Only to have the job yanked away... given to the faculty advisor who was supposed to be advising me of how to turn my internship into a job. *sigh*
oh I struggled with that resentment for years. at the time it was months but oh how frustrating. As I started to come out of those feelings... it just skewed my whole vision of what life was supposed to be and how I was supposed to minister to people... something that I've barely managed to be able to start to figure out now- 18 years later.
I am still hesitant to confident that I would know God's touch if he touched me on the face. Touching a face is so intimate. It's a connection. Something a single girl longs for - contact with someone who loves you.
Looked into my eyes, could I behold you?
would that touch on the face lead into turning my eyes up to see who was there... would I be allowed to view God in all his glory?
Am I honestly that worthy?
Be still and know that I am God...
I know this. I do not need to look into God's eyes or have him look into mine to see him in everything.
Sunrise and sunset. the joy of a child's gleeful laugh at something that tickles their funny bone. holding a baby close and cuddling them... kissing soft baby foreheads and soothing them when they fuss. Because seriously? what's closer to God than a newborn?
....
Good friends who are your shoulder to lean on and you are their shoulder to lean on in return.
You can choose to see God in everything... to seek him out ... to take off your shoes in that holy place when you find it - I used to love taking long walks along the beach just before sunset. the waves crashing ... stars starting to twinkle in the sky above as the moon started to rise. Heading inland to slip into the back rows of bonfire to sing and commune with others in the presence of God.
This song lays into you... cuts you to shreds when you aren't feeling close enough to God in your deepest heart of hearts. He sees those spots you know... and choses to ignore then until you are ready and willing to bring them to him and lay them at his feet and ask for forgivness.
Thursday, March 5, 2015
March already?
I can't believe it's already the 3rd month of the year. What happened? :)
Well, what I can tell you is, that I don't have to use any paycheck money to pay rent. I have my bonus and tax refund coming and 2 paychecks that after I pay the standard bills, I will have money to try and do some things.
This isn't really different, it's what happens every year. Time to book the vacation flights and pay things that always renew at this time of year.
People will never cease to amaze me. I'm sorry... grow up and pay your power bills.
1. ALWAYS... ALWAYS call. don't just go off on a wild hare and make a payment without talking about it first. Because if you managed to scrape up 500 to pay on your bill, it's in your best interest to pay it to the right account or to NOT mail it because guess what. we can't use it until it gets here and you can be as mad at me as you want but YOU didn't call. you didn't. you didn't call before... and if you could pay $500 why didn't you get the urgent bug to do it when we sent notices, BEFORE you were disconnected? woulda saved us both a lot of trouble.
rant over.
but yeah, people need to grow up.
Fun weekend ahead... bible study/fellowship with friends tomorrow. Driving to Oregon Saturday for Monica's Birthday weekend... Monday - breakfast date with the coolest (will be on Monday) 17 year old I know... drive home. mani/pedi at 2 pm... try to make yoga at 4:45. I'm thinking though that yoga will HAVE to be on Wednesday and Saturday next week. I just don't think i'll be out of town, and in my car at northgate in time. since it will be at least 3:30, 3:45 before I'm done. so yes... skip that... as much as it pains me to do so... it won't do anyone any good if something happens to me when rushing around. and it'll be rush hour to leave.
:) The goal is to not have anything in the car and be able to just get to northgate, have lunch and then take the bus downtown. Red Robin for me... free entrée. :)
Enough for now. Will have to figure out what to do to save all my fantastic blog ideas that will occur to me when I'm driving. LOL
Well, what I can tell you is, that I don't have to use any paycheck money to pay rent. I have my bonus and tax refund coming and 2 paychecks that after I pay the standard bills, I will have money to try and do some things.
This isn't really different, it's what happens every year. Time to book the vacation flights and pay things that always renew at this time of year.
People will never cease to amaze me. I'm sorry... grow up and pay your power bills.
1. ALWAYS... ALWAYS call. don't just go off on a wild hare and make a payment without talking about it first. Because if you managed to scrape up 500 to pay on your bill, it's in your best interest to pay it to the right account or to NOT mail it because guess what. we can't use it until it gets here and you can be as mad at me as you want but YOU didn't call. you didn't. you didn't call before... and if you could pay $500 why didn't you get the urgent bug to do it when we sent notices, BEFORE you were disconnected? woulda saved us both a lot of trouble.
rant over.
but yeah, people need to grow up.
Fun weekend ahead... bible study/fellowship with friends tomorrow. Driving to Oregon Saturday for Monica's Birthday weekend... Monday - breakfast date with the coolest (will be on Monday) 17 year old I know... drive home. mani/pedi at 2 pm... try to make yoga at 4:45. I'm thinking though that yoga will HAVE to be on Wednesday and Saturday next week. I just don't think i'll be out of town, and in my car at northgate in time. since it will be at least 3:30, 3:45 before I'm done. so yes... skip that... as much as it pains me to do so... it won't do anyone any good if something happens to me when rushing around. and it'll be rush hour to leave.
:) The goal is to not have anything in the car and be able to just get to northgate, have lunch and then take the bus downtown. Red Robin for me... free entrée. :)
Enough for now. Will have to figure out what to do to save all my fantastic blog ideas that will occur to me when I'm driving. LOL
Friday, February 27, 2015
yoga and rain and not sleeping....
I had a thought about a really great blog post for tonight. last night... well... you know what I mean.
But instead, it's now practically two am and it's raining soooo hard that even though I am tired, I am just not getting the hang of this sleep thing tonight. It's tempting... just to stay up because before you know it, the alarms will go off and i'll need to leave for work in 4 hours.
guess it's a few extra cups of coffee tomorrow... no decaf about it. and I'd better make sure to get my hands on protein too. it always helps me get through a day after staying up all night for whatever reason it is.
why tonight?
Well partly due to that rain that's pounding down and being way noisy... but also due to getting stuck reading something that I couldn't tear my eyes away from. make that two somethings because I was reading a book in the hopes that it would make me sleepy but no such luck. just a firm realization that the book was #3 yes but there are apparently a few more to round out the series. *sigh* guess I'm increasing my book budget before the rent goes up. I really really want the books.
And they aren't free. nor are they available in half price books. ebook only.
Oh well.
I made brownies tonight. For Bible study tomorrow night. they smell fantastic.
And I started yoga this week. And am strangely pleased to state and admit that I am less sore today after my 2nd class then I was all day Tuesday and most of yesterday after the first class. unlimited month groupon... yay! have to try for another one some time because this 'month' is turning into a lot of slots that I may not be able to fit into. so it would probably be nice to have another one for a later class set.
Okay... enough for now. Have to decide about the rain. I mean it's not like I can make it stop anyway but do I ignore it and force sleep or ... ? Not sure which option involves not missing the alarms and making it to work on time. lol
But instead, it's now practically two am and it's raining soooo hard that even though I am tired, I am just not getting the hang of this sleep thing tonight. It's tempting... just to stay up because before you know it, the alarms will go off and i'll need to leave for work in 4 hours.
guess it's a few extra cups of coffee tomorrow... no decaf about it. and I'd better make sure to get my hands on protein too. it always helps me get through a day after staying up all night for whatever reason it is.
why tonight?
Well partly due to that rain that's pounding down and being way noisy... but also due to getting stuck reading something that I couldn't tear my eyes away from. make that two somethings because I was reading a book in the hopes that it would make me sleepy but no such luck. just a firm realization that the book was #3 yes but there are apparently a few more to round out the series. *sigh* guess I'm increasing my book budget before the rent goes up. I really really want the books.
And they aren't free. nor are they available in half price books. ebook only.
Oh well.
I made brownies tonight. For Bible study tomorrow night. they smell fantastic.
And I started yoga this week. And am strangely pleased to state and admit that I am less sore today after my 2nd class then I was all day Tuesday and most of yesterday after the first class. unlimited month groupon... yay! have to try for another one some time because this 'month' is turning into a lot of slots that I may not be able to fit into. so it would probably be nice to have another one for a later class set.
Okay... enough for now. Have to decide about the rain. I mean it's not like I can make it stop anyway but do I ignore it and force sleep or ... ? Not sure which option involves not missing the alarms and making it to work on time. lol
Thursday, February 19, 2015
It feels like spring... but it isn't...
It is far too early for this girl to be thinking about baseball. But the weather has been springlike and a few flowers have been poking their heads out and blooming already.
Today's drizzle may have beaten them down a bit, but I will have to check when I go out walking this weekend.
I've recovered from last week's melancholy mood... and have found my appetite lacking which is a plus from the watching my weight point of view. I managed to skip soda entirely over the weekend so that was a good 3 day break from my limit. I also have managed to avoid the candy dishes for two days in a row and am considering making it 3. There will be cheesecake for dessert at bible study tomorrow night and avoiding the candy dish will make that piece of dessert all the more rewarding.
The detractors are ... girl scout cookies. my presale order has been bought and delivered. Big plus? I have not devoured the entire box of Samoa's yet... the thin mints are safe and so are the savannah smiles. :) I'll leave them strictly at work so that I don't get tempted to finish them off at home this weekend. I am also capable of limiting my inhaling of the Ginger Wasabi chips that have finally made it to grocery stores. Can I avoid stocking up while they are 2/$5 at safeway? Doubtful. But right now, I have one open bag and one bag good through 4/21 so I will probably keep stalking them at the store and buying later expire dates as needed until it is FOR sure that they are on the shelf all the time. I cannot believe how long it has taken them to show up in the store. I was about to give up on them.
Still haven't found the new Ben and Jerry's flavors. May need to make a stop at Target to see if they show up there, or maybe a Walmart stop this weekend to see.
I know, I know... no where near as exciting as last week's lashing out against 'heart n flower n chocolate n kissing' day ... *shrug* we've already established I have to be pretty emotional to have a deep, deep ... soul searching post. lol
Today's drizzle may have beaten them down a bit, but I will have to check when I go out walking this weekend.
I've recovered from last week's melancholy mood... and have found my appetite lacking which is a plus from the watching my weight point of view. I managed to skip soda entirely over the weekend so that was a good 3 day break from my limit. I also have managed to avoid the candy dishes for two days in a row and am considering making it 3. There will be cheesecake for dessert at bible study tomorrow night and avoiding the candy dish will make that piece of dessert all the more rewarding.
The detractors are ... girl scout cookies. my presale order has been bought and delivered. Big plus? I have not devoured the entire box of Samoa's yet... the thin mints are safe and so are the savannah smiles. :) I'll leave them strictly at work so that I don't get tempted to finish them off at home this weekend. I am also capable of limiting my inhaling of the Ginger Wasabi chips that have finally made it to grocery stores. Can I avoid stocking up while they are 2/$5 at safeway? Doubtful. But right now, I have one open bag and one bag good through 4/21 so I will probably keep stalking them at the store and buying later expire dates as needed until it is FOR sure that they are on the shelf all the time. I cannot believe how long it has taken them to show up in the store. I was about to give up on them.
Still haven't found the new Ben and Jerry's flavors. May need to make a stop at Target to see if they show up there, or maybe a Walmart stop this weekend to see.
I know, I know... no where near as exciting as last week's lashing out against 'heart n flower n chocolate n kissing' day ... *shrug* we've already established I have to be pretty emotional to have a deep, deep ... soul searching post. lol
Friday, February 13, 2015
It's just another day...
So...
Tomorrow, is Valentine's day.
Not exactly a special day when you're single.
as in... not dating... no plans, no nothing going on.
I just can't get into it this year. Normally, I would go all out... dig out my heart sprinkles and bake up a few batches of cookies or cupcakes. Even if I have to cheat and start with store bought cookie dough, those edges get rolled in sprinkles or dunked in them before baking and there would be something taken to work to share with my co-workers. But not this year, I just couldn't seem to be bothered.
Maybe it was the wreath I was frantically working on to finish for a birthday present or maybe the house cleaning that was done in a whirlwind before my parents came to visit today for the weekend.
Maybe it's because I'm 40.
I'd like to blame that...
Maybe it's because I'm starting to realize that a day of hearts, flowers and romance is designed to be a painful stab in the heart for a single person who's never had a special valentine or anything at all that resembled special plans.
No one to present those flowers an chocolate and arrange a special romantic evening.
Never. and I mean NEVER... (the Rock means Never... lol) Never ever ever... if you anticipate that perhaps the first valentine's date or special treatment happens at 15, well. boy howdy... I have 25 years of waiting for something special to do under my belt and quite frankly... it doesn't look like it's ever going to happen.
I just buy my own chocolate.
I'm holding out this year. I'll buy it after ... when it's on sale. At least for stocking up the work candy dish and hoping to find special kisses or pb cups to use in special baking projects later. But usually I have a tendency to eat the whole box in one sitting if I buy a heart box. and then 'hate' myself for it after ... usually around bedtime when I'm so keyed up on sugar and self loathing that I am awake for hours on end with no sleep in site.
I truly want to be successful in my weight loss goals this year. So this is a HUGE part of why I am not starting the self medicating ... for broken hearted purposes... chocolate cures everything, don't doubt me, just buy into it please. (Harry Potter quote here - eat it, it will help - Lupin, about chocolate ... for almost any reason... lol) So I am determined to not indulge in the large box of candy and the required 2 pints of ice cream... 2 liter of soda and as many fried foods as I can tolerate in one weekend..... as my previous endeavors have included... in favor of continuing to watch it.
My parents being here does go a long way towards my monitoring of the situation. While there will be meals out and choices to be made, I won't sit wallowing in my own spot with my candies at hand and eating them.
I'd have to share.
which may just mean that I could splurge on a 1/2 pound box of Scotch Mallows at See's.
They are just expensive enough that I am able to stop at one. and company means sharing. so... we'll see.
I'm not sure if I've given proper voice to what I am feeling about this day.
What I do know is that my thought process for this post has had my stomach in knots for 2 days and drove me to tears while trying to express myself. ah, yes... more than once today actually.
It is so hard... so HARD... to write this and face the fact that ... what it all boils down to for me is the need to deal with the pain and envy that I feel.
Pain... and envy.
all around me at work today there were happy people with plans for special evenings...special weekend plans, wanting and needing to spoil their significant others. I don't have that. I make no plans... even without parents visiting... well... no plans for the weekend for me.
I'm just not someone that is considered worthy enough. weekend worthy is what I called it once. When someone falls in love with you and decides that they can't not spend time on the weekends without you. getting engaged and getting married is supposed to be securing you a lifetime of being considered weekend worthy because they are choosing you forever.
I can't figure out how being the girl guys love to hang out with... being a fan of football, basketball and baseball as well as hockey and pro wrestling... certainly used to win me brownie points and make me be that ultimate guys girl. and I had plenty of guys mind you that I could talk about these things with. But why isn't that the girl they want to settle down with and marry?
Was it mostly due to the fact that those guys were already 1. seriously dating or 2 engaged or 3. married. or ... 4... *grimace* um... likes the same guys you do... sort of situation. I refuse to be the other woman. I would HATE to be dumped for 'the other woman' so ... what right do I have to try and poach another girl's guy? even if I do watch and love pro wrestling more than she does, it wouldn't be right so I have always immediately declared them off limits and would do my best to not hang my heart out on my sleeve around them.
Was it appearance? Granted I've been overweight for years but I'd like to think that I am remotely attractive enough to catch someone's attention. anyone?
Single people that are steady dating anyone ... can't possibly understand. They used to tell me dating wasn't all it was cracked up to be and I wasn't missing anything but a lot of heartache.
Um, excuse me. my experience wouldn't necessarily have been the same as yours so don't tell me that I'm missing out on the pain when there's nothing that says I'd actually experience that.
Married people sometimes tell me it still isn't all it's cracked up to be and I'm not missing out on anything. I grant them a bit of grace with that response because just as they don't know my life ... I don't honestly know what happens in their home when they are just home as a family with no company - me - around.
Realistically you don't get to tell me that at all because yeah... remember the pain and envy? yeah, I'm still that girl.
It does hurt me... you have someone that you love or at least loved, enough to marry and have a life with. you have kids (or not) ... you have a - usually- second income that can help with paying bills. You might have a house, and not an apartment that has a rent increase every year... you have someone to talk to. someone to fight with, laugh with and love. LOVE LOvE LOVE. (it really stings though if you're on your second or third marriage. LOL... c'mon now... you should have to find me someone to go out with before you take on another marriage, it's never fair that people go back for seconds before everyone gets a chance to have firsts.)
envy. you have so much and I have so little other than to stress and worry about getting all my bills paid on time.
and you have kids. it's so hard for me. I've always had that maternal instinct... I wanted to be a mama... now... *shrug* not sure it would actually happen for me even if I did find someone. it's hard to hang on to all your hopes and dreams when it seems like everything is squeezing down to a tiny little tunnel and if you're not careful... someday... you'll be lucky to get out of the tunnel alive.
I don't know what I'd do on a date, I don't have a clue about going to go find one. Please don't say online dating sites ... I do have profiles on almost all of them and in the... oh... 4 or 5 years that has been the case.... let's not even talk about the lack of response. it's hard to get a date when no one shows any interest in you.
Story of my life, honestly.
I apparently have a gift to give my husband someday... one that many many people say they wish they could have given to their mate. Please... just don't admire me... don't tell me that. don't put me up on a pedestal too often as a role model or example... It hurts. Totally hurts to be 40 and realize that sure, I've got that going for me but it's not like I had to try very hard to remain this way. In case no one has noticed from what was said earlier in this post... it's not like I've had to refuse or turn guys away at my door or threaten them with a baseball bat.
It's simple to remain pure for your future mate when there isn't anyone hanging around trying to become your mate. and it's often clear that even when you go out in an attempt to find and secure a mate of your own... that you aren't getting any attention so no one wants to be with you like that.
Please understand... if anyone is reading this... that I do not begrudge you anything. I like to see happy and loving people. I love you, I love your kids, I love the feeling of being included and appreciate it when people do welcome me with open arms into their families... to their churches or bible studies. it helps me a lot. It just hurts because I try so hard not to be envious of what I don't have... and it's a huge struggle.
so accept me and love me for who I am. Because I accept and love you for who you are too.
is it seriously past the time for arranged marriages? Long lost marriage contracts?
Oh well. I will just go on being who I am and doing what I like.
why isn't the chocolate on sale yet... ?
Tomorrow, is Valentine's day.
Not exactly a special day when you're single.
as in... not dating... no plans, no nothing going on.
I just can't get into it this year. Normally, I would go all out... dig out my heart sprinkles and bake up a few batches of cookies or cupcakes. Even if I have to cheat and start with store bought cookie dough, those edges get rolled in sprinkles or dunked in them before baking and there would be something taken to work to share with my co-workers. But not this year, I just couldn't seem to be bothered.
Maybe it was the wreath I was frantically working on to finish for a birthday present or maybe the house cleaning that was done in a whirlwind before my parents came to visit today for the weekend.
Maybe it's because I'm 40.
I'd like to blame that...
Maybe it's because I'm starting to realize that a day of hearts, flowers and romance is designed to be a painful stab in the heart for a single person who's never had a special valentine or anything at all that resembled special plans.
No one to present those flowers an chocolate and arrange a special romantic evening.
Never. and I mean NEVER... (the Rock means Never... lol) Never ever ever... if you anticipate that perhaps the first valentine's date or special treatment happens at 15, well. boy howdy... I have 25 years of waiting for something special to do under my belt and quite frankly... it doesn't look like it's ever going to happen.
I just buy my own chocolate.
I'm holding out this year. I'll buy it after ... when it's on sale. At least for stocking up the work candy dish and hoping to find special kisses or pb cups to use in special baking projects later. But usually I have a tendency to eat the whole box in one sitting if I buy a heart box. and then 'hate' myself for it after ... usually around bedtime when I'm so keyed up on sugar and self loathing that I am awake for hours on end with no sleep in site.
I truly want to be successful in my weight loss goals this year. So this is a HUGE part of why I am not starting the self medicating ... for broken hearted purposes... chocolate cures everything, don't doubt me, just buy into it please. (Harry Potter quote here - eat it, it will help - Lupin, about chocolate ... for almost any reason... lol) So I am determined to not indulge in the large box of candy and the required 2 pints of ice cream... 2 liter of soda and as many fried foods as I can tolerate in one weekend..... as my previous endeavors have included... in favor of continuing to watch it.
My parents being here does go a long way towards my monitoring of the situation. While there will be meals out and choices to be made, I won't sit wallowing in my own spot with my candies at hand and eating them.
I'd have to share.
which may just mean that I could splurge on a 1/2 pound box of Scotch Mallows at See's.
They are just expensive enough that I am able to stop at one. and company means sharing. so... we'll see.
I'm not sure if I've given proper voice to what I am feeling about this day.
What I do know is that my thought process for this post has had my stomach in knots for 2 days and drove me to tears while trying to express myself. ah, yes... more than once today actually.
It is so hard... so HARD... to write this and face the fact that ... what it all boils down to for me is the need to deal with the pain and envy that I feel.
Pain... and envy.
all around me at work today there were happy people with plans for special evenings...special weekend plans, wanting and needing to spoil their significant others. I don't have that. I make no plans... even without parents visiting... well... no plans for the weekend for me.
I'm just not someone that is considered worthy enough. weekend worthy is what I called it once. When someone falls in love with you and decides that they can't not spend time on the weekends without you. getting engaged and getting married is supposed to be securing you a lifetime of being considered weekend worthy because they are choosing you forever.
I can't figure out how being the girl guys love to hang out with... being a fan of football, basketball and baseball as well as hockey and pro wrestling... certainly used to win me brownie points and make me be that ultimate guys girl. and I had plenty of guys mind you that I could talk about these things with. But why isn't that the girl they want to settle down with and marry?
Was it mostly due to the fact that those guys were already 1. seriously dating or 2 engaged or 3. married. or ... 4... *grimace* um... likes the same guys you do... sort of situation. I refuse to be the other woman. I would HATE to be dumped for 'the other woman' so ... what right do I have to try and poach another girl's guy? even if I do watch and love pro wrestling more than she does, it wouldn't be right so I have always immediately declared them off limits and would do my best to not hang my heart out on my sleeve around them.
Was it appearance? Granted I've been overweight for years but I'd like to think that I am remotely attractive enough to catch someone's attention. anyone?
Single people that are steady dating anyone ... can't possibly understand. They used to tell me dating wasn't all it was cracked up to be and I wasn't missing anything but a lot of heartache.
Um, excuse me. my experience wouldn't necessarily have been the same as yours so don't tell me that I'm missing out on the pain when there's nothing that says I'd actually experience that.
Married people sometimes tell me it still isn't all it's cracked up to be and I'm not missing out on anything. I grant them a bit of grace with that response because just as they don't know my life ... I don't honestly know what happens in their home when they are just home as a family with no company - me - around.
Realistically you don't get to tell me that at all because yeah... remember the pain and envy? yeah, I'm still that girl.
It does hurt me... you have someone that you love or at least loved, enough to marry and have a life with. you have kids (or not) ... you have a - usually- second income that can help with paying bills. You might have a house, and not an apartment that has a rent increase every year... you have someone to talk to. someone to fight with, laugh with and love. LOVE LOvE LOVE. (it really stings though if you're on your second or third marriage. LOL... c'mon now... you should have to find me someone to go out with before you take on another marriage, it's never fair that people go back for seconds before everyone gets a chance to have firsts.)
envy. you have so much and I have so little other than to stress and worry about getting all my bills paid on time.
and you have kids. it's so hard for me. I've always had that maternal instinct... I wanted to be a mama... now... *shrug* not sure it would actually happen for me even if I did find someone. it's hard to hang on to all your hopes and dreams when it seems like everything is squeezing down to a tiny little tunnel and if you're not careful... someday... you'll be lucky to get out of the tunnel alive.
I don't know what I'd do on a date, I don't have a clue about going to go find one. Please don't say online dating sites ... I do have profiles on almost all of them and in the... oh... 4 or 5 years that has been the case.... let's not even talk about the lack of response. it's hard to get a date when no one shows any interest in you.
Story of my life, honestly.
I apparently have a gift to give my husband someday... one that many many people say they wish they could have given to their mate. Please... just don't admire me... don't tell me that. don't put me up on a pedestal too often as a role model or example... It hurts. Totally hurts to be 40 and realize that sure, I've got that going for me but it's not like I had to try very hard to remain this way. In case no one has noticed from what was said earlier in this post... it's not like I've had to refuse or turn guys away at my door or threaten them with a baseball bat.
It's simple to remain pure for your future mate when there isn't anyone hanging around trying to become your mate. and it's often clear that even when you go out in an attempt to find and secure a mate of your own... that you aren't getting any attention so no one wants to be with you like that.
Please understand... if anyone is reading this... that I do not begrudge you anything. I like to see happy and loving people. I love you, I love your kids, I love the feeling of being included and appreciate it when people do welcome me with open arms into their families... to their churches or bible studies. it helps me a lot. It just hurts because I try so hard not to be envious of what I don't have... and it's a huge struggle.
so accept me and love me for who I am. Because I accept and love you for who you are too.
is it seriously past the time for arranged marriages? Long lost marriage contracts?
Oh well. I will just go on being who I am and doing what I like.
why isn't the chocolate on sale yet... ?
Friday, February 6, 2015
Cupcakes, Cupcakes..... cupcakes?
Let's talk cupcakes.
A very fitting subject for this week after a disappointing outcome to the Superbowl. But I digress... it's almost time for Baseball... and I know the Mariner's will provide appropriate excitement to take us all the way to the start of Football season again. Add in 2 vacations and some weekends away and oh yeah, I'll be set.
So... cupcakes.
Salted Caramel cupcakes to be exact. Now, I probably don't have to actually say that I adore cupcakes. collect cupcakes and cupcake things. They're just perfect... and cute. and usually for the most part, at least the ones you can eat are totally yummy.
So, a favorite flavor of mine is Salted Caramel and there were 2 cupcake stores in the area that I've had the chance to extensively sample and this week I popped into the 3rd place, that I'd noticed is now selling cupcakes and French macarons in addition to doughnuts now. So I thought I'd drop a bit of money and try a few things.
Word to the wise... make sure your service person GIVES YOU THE CUPCAKES YOU WANT! Fortunately, it was a buy 2 get one free day and since they gave me one I cannot stand - RED VELVET ... yuck. seriously. if I'd actually wanted it I would have actually ordered it.
The side note is - the macron's are fantastic and I am going to be hard pressed to remind myself that they are too expensive and too out of my way to get a macron fix. But they were super yummy and a total match to the ones at honore.
But again, I digress.
Salted Caramel Comparison was the point here. And I am totally ready to weigh in on my favorites.
First up... Cupcake Royale. Now... the best part about this one for me is the frosting. It's a lovely thick caramel ganache almost... oooh... so good I'd like to just eat an entire bowl of it with a spoon. The chocolate cupcake isn't bad, it's a bit too dense for my liking. I do like their cupcakes but all in all they are usually too dense. This one comes with small dark chocolate curls and visible sprinkling of salt crystals on top.
Next... Pinkabella cupcakes. I like the frosting, its' a caramel buttercream drizzled with caramel and sprinkled with sea salt. But what I truly love about the Pinkabella cupcakes is the cake is really good. nice and soft, not too dense or dry. To be honest, I've always wanted the cupcake royale caramel frosting on top of the Pinkabella cupcake. ... :)
and this week's audition to get in the ranks... Frost... To be honest... totally disappointed. The cupcake is dry and barely more than a cake mix ... seemingly. The frosting is uninspired. It doesn't appear to be a caramel butter cream and I'd have to say that ... if I guess... it's almost more of a whipped cream frosting that is usually found piped into the center of a Bismarck in their donut case than suitable for being on top of a cupcake. It was drizzled with caramel and sprinkled with salt. There may or may not have been a caramel filling in the cupcake. if there was, there wasn't enough of it because THAT would have redeemed what I was thinking about the cupcake itself.
So there you have it... I'd still like cupcake royale's frosting on the pinkabella cupcake... or maybe Trophy's cupcake. hmm. I will have to check the Pacific Place cupcake spot tomorrow. I can't remember if I've had a salted caramel from them.
Hmm... I could go to cupcake royale too and see about just getting some frosting. hmm. Or a bacon crack chocolate chip cookie.
Ohh ohhh... being downtown will be dangerous to my diet tomorrow. I also have a huge addiction and weakness for the divinity cookies at the Pike Place Bakery... mmm... those are things from my childhood. The bakery in town used to make them and it's been years since I have had them consistently. I do absolutely need to find a recipe and get cracking on them... they need to be shared.
This counts as this week's blog post... I honestly just forgot to blog yesterday... this is the one I planned though. :)
A very fitting subject for this week after a disappointing outcome to the Superbowl. But I digress... it's almost time for Baseball... and I know the Mariner's will provide appropriate excitement to take us all the way to the start of Football season again. Add in 2 vacations and some weekends away and oh yeah, I'll be set.
So... cupcakes.
Salted Caramel cupcakes to be exact. Now, I probably don't have to actually say that I adore cupcakes. collect cupcakes and cupcake things. They're just perfect... and cute. and usually for the most part, at least the ones you can eat are totally yummy.
So, a favorite flavor of mine is Salted Caramel and there were 2 cupcake stores in the area that I've had the chance to extensively sample and this week I popped into the 3rd place, that I'd noticed is now selling cupcakes and French macarons in addition to doughnuts now. So I thought I'd drop a bit of money and try a few things.
Word to the wise... make sure your service person GIVES YOU THE CUPCAKES YOU WANT! Fortunately, it was a buy 2 get one free day and since they gave me one I cannot stand - RED VELVET ... yuck. seriously. if I'd actually wanted it I would have actually ordered it.
The side note is - the macron's are fantastic and I am going to be hard pressed to remind myself that they are too expensive and too out of my way to get a macron fix. But they were super yummy and a total match to the ones at honore.
But again, I digress.
Salted Caramel Comparison was the point here. And I am totally ready to weigh in on my favorites.
First up... Cupcake Royale. Now... the best part about this one for me is the frosting. It's a lovely thick caramel ganache almost... oooh... so good I'd like to just eat an entire bowl of it with a spoon. The chocolate cupcake isn't bad, it's a bit too dense for my liking. I do like their cupcakes but all in all they are usually too dense. This one comes with small dark chocolate curls and visible sprinkling of salt crystals on top.
Next... Pinkabella cupcakes. I like the frosting, its' a caramel buttercream drizzled with caramel and sprinkled with sea salt. But what I truly love about the Pinkabella cupcakes is the cake is really good. nice and soft, not too dense or dry. To be honest, I've always wanted the cupcake royale caramel frosting on top of the Pinkabella cupcake. ... :)
and this week's audition to get in the ranks... Frost... To be honest... totally disappointed. The cupcake is dry and barely more than a cake mix ... seemingly. The frosting is uninspired. It doesn't appear to be a caramel butter cream and I'd have to say that ... if I guess... it's almost more of a whipped cream frosting that is usually found piped into the center of a Bismarck in their donut case than suitable for being on top of a cupcake. It was drizzled with caramel and sprinkled with salt. There may or may not have been a caramel filling in the cupcake. if there was, there wasn't enough of it because THAT would have redeemed what I was thinking about the cupcake itself.
So there you have it... I'd still like cupcake royale's frosting on the pinkabella cupcake... or maybe Trophy's cupcake. hmm. I will have to check the Pacific Place cupcake spot tomorrow. I can't remember if I've had a salted caramel from them.
Hmm... I could go to cupcake royale too and see about just getting some frosting. hmm. Or a bacon crack chocolate chip cookie.
Ohh ohhh... being downtown will be dangerous to my diet tomorrow. I also have a huge addiction and weakness for the divinity cookies at the Pike Place Bakery... mmm... those are things from my childhood. The bakery in town used to make them and it's been years since I have had them consistently. I do absolutely need to find a recipe and get cracking on them... they need to be shared.
This counts as this week's blog post... I honestly just forgot to blog yesterday... this is the one I planned though. :)
Thursday, January 29, 2015
Thursday again...
Not that it's a bad thing.
I am looking forward to tomorrow and this weekend because it is... wait for it.... wait for it...
SUPERBOWL WEEKEND!
and seriously, if my beloved hawks were not playing, I wouldn't probably say that with such enthusiasm. But... I have always... since I was 13 or so, always watched the game. Yes, sometimes if I have not cared about who's playing I have been known to just watch the commercials.
But this one and the last one are very big for us... the 12's... the fans... Seattle.
Scandal whirls around the other team... QB of which, I can't stand. I'm sure that perhaps he might be an okay guy but given the fact that the story is... he dumped his heavily pregnant girlfriend right when she needed him and left her for someone else, well... that's kind of the personal sort of thing that I can't forgive anyone for.( UPDATE... Research into the situation shows that they broke up before she was heavily pregnant. However. it is still unforgiveable... she was definitely pregnant when they broke up so yeah, still a jerk...) sorta ranks him right up there on the lack of respect I have for a former Mariner who lied to us all season long and then left for a ridiculous amount of money that drove that next team into bankruptcy only to leave them and then go and do something stupid like drugs to enhance his performance and cheat on his wife and be all sorts of bad news that it was such a nice season last year without having him pop up. One might wonder if he'll actually play again. I mean, he was suspended for a season, does anyone have to let him back on the field?
Honest? If they do... if he plays another game anywhere but especially with his current team...? Pete Rose should be allowed to be in the hall of fame. Not as a manager... as a player. Before the betting and scandal... when he was amazing.
Back to the football... :)
Tailgate at work tomorrow, finished the taco meat... I've been taking stuff in for the last two weeks so that I wouldn't have to take it tomorrow. so now that the meat is finished I'm checking the list off as complete.
Sleep would be nice. They've started a freeway project that ... oh joy... wait for it... is right at my exit that I can see and hear from my apartment down to the next one. They're grinding the surface and doing a huge project over the next like 5 months. So ... if they are grinding on 2 lanes of the SB freeway right now and I can hear it when I'm trying to sleep ... how loud is it going to be when they're working on the NB lanes? and oh please oh please, let it be quiet every once in a while. I won't always want to or be able to sleep on my couch where the 'normal' noises of my front rooms are at least familiar enough for me to ignore while I fall asleep. I was just happy sleeping in my bed for once.
I might become a weekend sleeper and then stay up all the time... nap after work and stay up watching my shows at night. LOL might be able to do it if I go to bed when treenie does... lol
finally though... tomorrow's Friday and I cannot wait for it to be over.
I do miss my new closest friend...(clarification... I love my close friends. By designating this one as new and closest, I mean newer as in we are spending more time together and closest as she is the one who lives close enough to me that we can see each other in less than half an hour.. my other besties are an hour away and 16 hours or $400 plane ticket away. :) ) they've run off to Arizona for the big game and I won't see her until next Friday probably... Crossing my fingers for a great game on Sunday... might have big stuff to blog about next week.
#notime2sleep #champsareheretokickbutt #GoHAWKS
I am looking forward to tomorrow and this weekend because it is... wait for it.... wait for it...
SUPERBOWL WEEKEND!
and seriously, if my beloved hawks were not playing, I wouldn't probably say that with such enthusiasm. But... I have always... since I was 13 or so, always watched the game. Yes, sometimes if I have not cared about who's playing I have been known to just watch the commercials.
But this one and the last one are very big for us... the 12's... the fans... Seattle.
Scandal whirls around the other team... QB of which, I can't stand. I'm sure that perhaps he might be an okay guy but given the fact that the story is... he dumped his heavily pregnant girlfriend right when she needed him and left her for someone else, well... that's kind of the personal sort of thing that I can't forgive anyone for.( UPDATE... Research into the situation shows that they broke up before she was heavily pregnant. However. it is still unforgiveable... she was definitely pregnant when they broke up so yeah, still a jerk...) sorta ranks him right up there on the lack of respect I have for a former Mariner who lied to us all season long and then left for a ridiculous amount of money that drove that next team into bankruptcy only to leave them and then go and do something stupid like drugs to enhance his performance and cheat on his wife and be all sorts of bad news that it was such a nice season last year without having him pop up. One might wonder if he'll actually play again. I mean, he was suspended for a season, does anyone have to let him back on the field?
Honest? If they do... if he plays another game anywhere but especially with his current team...? Pete Rose should be allowed to be in the hall of fame. Not as a manager... as a player. Before the betting and scandal... when he was amazing.
Back to the football... :)
Tailgate at work tomorrow, finished the taco meat... I've been taking stuff in for the last two weeks so that I wouldn't have to take it tomorrow. so now that the meat is finished I'm checking the list off as complete.
Sleep would be nice. They've started a freeway project that ... oh joy... wait for it... is right at my exit that I can see and hear from my apartment down to the next one. They're grinding the surface and doing a huge project over the next like 5 months. So ... if they are grinding on 2 lanes of the SB freeway right now and I can hear it when I'm trying to sleep ... how loud is it going to be when they're working on the NB lanes? and oh please oh please, let it be quiet every once in a while. I won't always want to or be able to sleep on my couch where the 'normal' noises of my front rooms are at least familiar enough for me to ignore while I fall asleep. I was just happy sleeping in my bed for once.
I might become a weekend sleeper and then stay up all the time... nap after work and stay up watching my shows at night. LOL might be able to do it if I go to bed when treenie does... lol
finally though... tomorrow's Friday and I cannot wait for it to be over.
I do miss my new closest friend...(clarification... I love my close friends. By designating this one as new and closest, I mean newer as in we are spending more time together and closest as she is the one who lives close enough to me that we can see each other in less than half an hour.. my other besties are an hour away and 16 hours or $400 plane ticket away. :) ) they've run off to Arizona for the big game and I won't see her until next Friday probably... Crossing my fingers for a great game on Sunday... might have big stuff to blog about next week.
#notime2sleep #champsareheretokickbutt #GoHAWKS
Thursday, January 22, 2015
Yup... still too excited about Football to blog properly...
SUPERBOWL BOUND BABY! Let's do this one more time! ... in a row... :)
It's always so fun to see Seattle completely decked out in shades of blue and green to support the Seahawks. It's a rare thing to find someone that can't be happy about the attention, respect and well deserved rewards this team is getting.
They did earn this right to this game.
and to quote one of my favorite Russell Wilson American Family commercials...
DREAMS DON'T COME TRUE... DREAMS ARE MADE TRUE! GO OUT THERE AND GET YOUR DREAM...
again.
reporting from cloud 12... floating somewhere around the space needle... :)
It's always so fun to see Seattle completely decked out in shades of blue and green to support the Seahawks. It's a rare thing to find someone that can't be happy about the attention, respect and well deserved rewards this team is getting.
They did earn this right to this game.
and to quote one of my favorite Russell Wilson American Family commercials...
DREAMS DON'T COME TRUE... DREAMS ARE MADE TRUE! GO OUT THERE AND GET YOUR DREAM...
again.
reporting from cloud 12... floating somewhere around the space needle... :)
Thursday, January 15, 2015
so... maybe I'm not meant to be a deep thought person...
Or perhaps it comes and goes and I won't truly have some amazing deep thoughts to work out in my blog all the time.
Guess I need to go for a drive.
Guess I need to take a recorder with me because all the great thoughts come while cruising down the freeway at 60 something an hour and you can't exactly type up your thoughts or write them down because you're not supposed to multi task like that on the freeway.
So I'll go with who I am.
So far, no, have not managed to blog something every day. I guess I'm not feeling moved enough to do that. I mean, come on. I waxed poetic about blueberries in an attempt to find something to say. It's sometimes difficult because I know I don't do much to put my blogs out there and the feeling that hardly anyone is reading me is almost practically confirmed.
and it's hard to blog without pictures but until I can figure out why BlogSpot won't let me upload pictures off my computer to my blog, well... it's going to have to wait. I'm doing most excellently to remain committed to posting a blog post on Thursdays.
It's still been too easy to say: oh, it's too dark or it's raining or it's cold and I don't feel like walking. so... I need to make sure to double up on weekends or not flake out on how long of a walk I take on those days when I do take my walks.
So far so good my weight has fluctuated within a half pound since the beginning of the year. Which means... that the soda limit has been paying off. I even managed to not drink it at work one day, didn't take it home and never got one from anywhere else so skipping them has not felt like I'm withholding something from myself.
And also, so far so good on my financial planning for the year. tough spots will come up I am sure... but I'm so determined to figure this out because there's no reason at my age... lol... that I can't manage to maintain a savings account balance. I've decided that at the end of the year if I have managed to be successful in keeping both savings accounts intact, I will make plans to spend one of them - I'm hoping for a new couch... but will settle for a large credit card payment to SOMETHING if necessary. Then the other account will be used as a start for next year's savings so that at the end of that year, I could have enough of my own money to put into a CD.
I'll tell you this... my new favorite snack at night is Dole's Dippers. they are frozen banana slices and strawberry halves that have been dipped into dark chocolate. the size of the snack has been satisfying and the frozen aspect means that I haven't been scarfing down ice cream because this is cold and yummy and the dark chocolate makes it totally worth it. 100 calories a package... perfect.
Let's see... wrapping up... football mania is still running rampant through Seattle. The Seahawks play for the NFC championship and the chance to go fight for another Superbowl victory this weekend. There is a pepperoni pull apart bread in my oven right now to take to work for tomorrow because it feels like bad karma to not tailgate in some way... and that means food. you have to have food. It's also a test run, because I will make another one for Sunday's game to take with me to my friends house to share.
Crossing my fingers that means more cuddle time with her new nephew... he's the sweetest little thing I've held in a few years... (right after her daughter lol) anyway!
#GoHawks
Guess I need to go for a drive.
Guess I need to take a recorder with me because all the great thoughts come while cruising down the freeway at 60 something an hour and you can't exactly type up your thoughts or write them down because you're not supposed to multi task like that on the freeway.
So I'll go with who I am.
So far, no, have not managed to blog something every day. I guess I'm not feeling moved enough to do that. I mean, come on. I waxed poetic about blueberries in an attempt to find something to say. It's sometimes difficult because I know I don't do much to put my blogs out there and the feeling that hardly anyone is reading me is almost practically confirmed.
and it's hard to blog without pictures but until I can figure out why BlogSpot won't let me upload pictures off my computer to my blog, well... it's going to have to wait. I'm doing most excellently to remain committed to posting a blog post on Thursdays.
It's still been too easy to say: oh, it's too dark or it's raining or it's cold and I don't feel like walking. so... I need to make sure to double up on weekends or not flake out on how long of a walk I take on those days when I do take my walks.
So far so good my weight has fluctuated within a half pound since the beginning of the year. Which means... that the soda limit has been paying off. I even managed to not drink it at work one day, didn't take it home and never got one from anywhere else so skipping them has not felt like I'm withholding something from myself.
And also, so far so good on my financial planning for the year. tough spots will come up I am sure... but I'm so determined to figure this out because there's no reason at my age... lol... that I can't manage to maintain a savings account balance. I've decided that at the end of the year if I have managed to be successful in keeping both savings accounts intact, I will make plans to spend one of them - I'm hoping for a new couch... but will settle for a large credit card payment to SOMETHING if necessary. Then the other account will be used as a start for next year's savings so that at the end of that year, I could have enough of my own money to put into a CD.
I'll tell you this... my new favorite snack at night is Dole's Dippers. they are frozen banana slices and strawberry halves that have been dipped into dark chocolate. the size of the snack has been satisfying and the frozen aspect means that I haven't been scarfing down ice cream because this is cold and yummy and the dark chocolate makes it totally worth it. 100 calories a package... perfect.
Let's see... wrapping up... football mania is still running rampant through Seattle. The Seahawks play for the NFC championship and the chance to go fight for another Superbowl victory this weekend. There is a pepperoni pull apart bread in my oven right now to take to work for tomorrow because it feels like bad karma to not tailgate in some way... and that means food. you have to have food. It's also a test run, because I will make another one for Sunday's game to take with me to my friends house to share.
Crossing my fingers that means more cuddle time with her new nephew... he's the sweetest little thing I've held in a few years... (right after her daughter lol) anyway!
#GoHawks
Thursday, January 8, 2015
It's Thursday... And it's Playoff time in Seattle!
Yes, yes it is.
Finally time for us to go out and take the field on Saturday and begin our post season.
sometimes it's hard to wait for a few weeks.
But it's always interesting to see how 'blue' Seattle gets. Its remarkable really. You see people day in and day out wearing their green and blue anything really that says Seahawks right now. they don't care, tis time to wear it!
I bet that some of these people do not do this all the time and yet on the other side of the room is the group that does it year round. :)
No matter what happens, I'm proud of my team.
Such a good group of guys, on and off the field.
I'M TOO EXCITED TO DO A DEEP THOUGHT BLOG...
So we'll just say I blogged and shhh! :)
I am also tired, I have not gotten a lot of sleep the last two nights so I am simply looking forward to surviving tomorrow.
#gohawks #notime2sleep #russellwilsonisDANGERruss #didisaygohawks
Finally time for us to go out and take the field on Saturday and begin our post season.
sometimes it's hard to wait for a few weeks.
But it's always interesting to see how 'blue' Seattle gets. Its remarkable really. You see people day in and day out wearing their green and blue anything really that says Seahawks right now. they don't care, tis time to wear it!
I bet that some of these people do not do this all the time and yet on the other side of the room is the group that does it year round. :)
No matter what happens, I'm proud of my team.
Such a good group of guys, on and off the field.
I'M TOO EXCITED TO DO A DEEP THOUGHT BLOG...
So we'll just say I blogged and shhh! :)
I am also tired, I have not gotten a lot of sleep the last two nights so I am simply looking forward to surviving tomorrow.
#gohawks #notime2sleep #russellwilsonisDANGERruss #didisaygohawks
Tuesday, January 6, 2015
Well that was fun...
Nothing says fun times like spilling a good 1/2 C of a coffee drink all over yourself and your keyboard.
I think the netbook will be okay but time will tell. so far so good, does not appear to be a problem.
the futon will recover.
my pj's will be washed...
but the throw pillow might be done for.
Oh well, it was old anyway and had long been missing it's partner in pillowness.
oooh, new blue pillows coming up. hmm, light or dark... what sort should I get. :)
I'll tell you what I won't get... big down pillows like the yellow ones.
I have feathers all over the place and they are not that comfy of a pillow to cuddle with because you get stuck with the sharp points of the feathers all the time.
I think the netbook will be okay but time will tell. so far so good, does not appear to be a problem.
the futon will recover.
my pj's will be washed...
but the throw pillow might be done for.
Oh well, it was old anyway and had long been missing it's partner in pillowness.
oooh, new blue pillows coming up. hmm, light or dark... what sort should I get. :)
I'll tell you what I won't get... big down pillows like the yellow ones.
I have feathers all over the place and they are not that comfy of a pillow to cuddle with because you get stuck with the sharp points of the feathers all the time.
Sunday, January 4, 2015
Just sayin...
Blueberries.
Love them so much.
I made a smoothie today about 1 1/2 cups frozen blueberries and a cup of OJ and sparkling grapefruit water.
YUMMY!
Lots of fiber, a gorgeous dark purple color...
Yeah... unfortunately I'm out of blueberries, I think. I may need to resort to buying them. LOL
Love love love blueberries.
that's all.
Love them so much.
I made a smoothie today about 1 1/2 cups frozen blueberries and a cup of OJ and sparkling grapefruit water.
YUMMY!
Lots of fiber, a gorgeous dark purple color...
Yeah... unfortunately I'm out of blueberries, I think. I may need to resort to buying them. LOL
Love love love blueberries.
that's all.
Thursday, January 1, 2015
Learning to be a Let It Go girl...
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
Here it is, 2015 already and time again for us all to see the year as a blank slate and go out there and make it a great year... make some goals and be determined to stick to them and see it through... push yourself out of the box and reinvent yourself. You know... the sort of things that start off well and last maybe 6 to 8 months if you're lucky?
That's sort of what has happened for me the last few years and I think that, as I am now 24 days into my 40's, (shudder... somehow that seems a tad bit terrifying as I don't feel 40 and I don't think I act 40 and well.. somehow I thought that I'd never be 40? Not in some strange, I saw that I died young or had some death wish sort of thing, just that if I look at things now and look back 15 years or so, I just never thought that I'd be HERE... "here" ... this particular life so to speak at 40.)
Which most likely means that I am supposed to be changing things and doing something different. Something. Anything... I guess I'll figure it out.
Anyway...
This year, I have decided that I need theme songs... just a couple songs at least to start off the year to remind me of what sort of things I'd like to keep in mind, do, become, strive to be... etc etc etc. These theme songs may be discussed at length a time or two in this blog. I had been trying to think of and find a devotional book to follow this year and I'm not ruling that out. There are a few books on my kindle that could certainly fit that void. But to start with, I think that ... if I can truly remember all the things that popped in my mind to do with this blog while I was driving... this could really work out.
First theme song is: What do I know of Holy by Addison Road. ... blogger isn't liking me to add things so just go to youtube and look it up. I think there's a lyric video :) This song for the last few years has already been a place where I go when nothing makes sense. When I need the reminder that I am somewhat just a small piece of the bigger picture and I may not know much at all. :) Deep discussions will follow eventually. lol
Second theme song, goes with the title of this post and is an anticipated year long project for me... is... Let it Go. Yes, I know, I may never be an ice queen like Elsa ... but I'd be happy to be as optimistic and good natured as Olaf. Again - Youtube... look up Let it Go by Pentatonix. This version is amazing and is the one I was listening to when I got my ideas.
Future posts again... because this post is getting super long. :) But the idea is, the past is in the past... it's hard to live up to expectations and sometimes, you just gotta let things go. I have a hard time letting go. Not just things about other people but about myself, I can easily beat myself up for ages about things and that's just not good. So, I was thinking that the combination of my theme songs, as I work through them and go through the year, should make me a pretty good person who can find it easy to be reminded of God's goodness and holiness and that I can and should 'let it go'... if it's something I have a hard time letting go of, then absolutely, that's a reason to give it to God instead.
2015 Resolutions:
1. Blogging. One weekly deep thought, inspirational blog post, today's Thursdays so Thursday it is. I'm going to try to find something to blog about daily but my guarantee is Thursdays here. I do have 2 more blogs so maybe there will be run by blogging on those the rest of the time if I can.
2. Organization. Treena's visit last month started me on a good organizational path but I've been realizing that ... as I've always known... I'm a pack rat and that doesn't totally fit with the 'Let It Go' philosophy so... *wrinkles nose and bites lip* I'm gonna try to let more stuff go this year. Wardrobe: if I don't wear it in 6 months and it is seasonally appropriate to have worn it... buh bye... Other stuff... will need to take a deep sigh and truly evaluate if I need it... can't live without it... or if it should go somewhere else. (working my way through my wardrobe should mean I'm not buying a lot of new things this year....)
3. Financial Planning. Savings plan 1001, 2015 version: $100 a month saved. $50 into each savings account. I think part of my struggle in the savings ideas over the past 2 years is that I was trying to save everything all in one account. we're talking $25 a paycheck on each account. There's already a $25 automatic transfer on each one so I only need to transfer the other ones. And then I'm not touching them. Vacation $$ will be budgeted for and taken out of debit account unless there is a reason to do credit card. Credit cards: closing an account this month which will remove a payment. :)
4. Health: I am going to be trying to lose weight. I'd like to lose 4 to 5 pounds a month. Part of the attempt to do this will be walking 3 to 5 times a week for 30 to 45 minutes each time. Also- soda is limited to 1 a day... no carry overs and no doubling up if I didn't have one the day before.
And... finally...
5. Taking and making the time for the stuff that matters. :) 'nuff said.
Here it is, 2015 already and time again for us all to see the year as a blank slate and go out there and make it a great year... make some goals and be determined to stick to them and see it through... push yourself out of the box and reinvent yourself. You know... the sort of things that start off well and last maybe 6 to 8 months if you're lucky?
That's sort of what has happened for me the last few years and I think that, as I am now 24 days into my 40's, (shudder... somehow that seems a tad bit terrifying as I don't feel 40 and I don't think I act 40 and well.. somehow I thought that I'd never be 40? Not in some strange, I saw that I died young or had some death wish sort of thing, just that if I look at things now and look back 15 years or so, I just never thought that I'd be HERE... "here" ... this particular life so to speak at 40.)
Which most likely means that I am supposed to be changing things and doing something different. Something. Anything... I guess I'll figure it out.
Anyway...
This year, I have decided that I need theme songs... just a couple songs at least to start off the year to remind me of what sort of things I'd like to keep in mind, do, become, strive to be... etc etc etc. These theme songs may be discussed at length a time or two in this blog. I had been trying to think of and find a devotional book to follow this year and I'm not ruling that out. There are a few books on my kindle that could certainly fit that void. But to start with, I think that ... if I can truly remember all the things that popped in my mind to do with this blog while I was driving... this could really work out.
First theme song is: What do I know of Holy by Addison Road. ... blogger isn't liking me to add things so just go to youtube and look it up. I think there's a lyric video :) This song for the last few years has already been a place where I go when nothing makes sense. When I need the reminder that I am somewhat just a small piece of the bigger picture and I may not know much at all. :) Deep discussions will follow eventually. lol
Second theme song, goes with the title of this post and is an anticipated year long project for me... is... Let it Go. Yes, I know, I may never be an ice queen like Elsa ... but I'd be happy to be as optimistic and good natured as Olaf. Again - Youtube... look up Let it Go by Pentatonix. This version is amazing and is the one I was listening to when I got my ideas.
Future posts again... because this post is getting super long. :) But the idea is, the past is in the past... it's hard to live up to expectations and sometimes, you just gotta let things go. I have a hard time letting go. Not just things about other people but about myself, I can easily beat myself up for ages about things and that's just not good. So, I was thinking that the combination of my theme songs, as I work through them and go through the year, should make me a pretty good person who can find it easy to be reminded of God's goodness and holiness and that I can and should 'let it go'... if it's something I have a hard time letting go of, then absolutely, that's a reason to give it to God instead.
2015 Resolutions:
1. Blogging. One weekly deep thought, inspirational blog post, today's Thursdays so Thursday it is. I'm going to try to find something to blog about daily but my guarantee is Thursdays here. I do have 2 more blogs so maybe there will be run by blogging on those the rest of the time if I can.
2. Organization. Treena's visit last month started me on a good organizational path but I've been realizing that ... as I've always known... I'm a pack rat and that doesn't totally fit with the 'Let It Go' philosophy so... *wrinkles nose and bites lip* I'm gonna try to let more stuff go this year. Wardrobe: if I don't wear it in 6 months and it is seasonally appropriate to have worn it... buh bye... Other stuff... will need to take a deep sigh and truly evaluate if I need it... can't live without it... or if it should go somewhere else. (working my way through my wardrobe should mean I'm not buying a lot of new things this year....)
3. Financial Planning. Savings plan 1001, 2015 version: $100 a month saved. $50 into each savings account. I think part of my struggle in the savings ideas over the past 2 years is that I was trying to save everything all in one account. we're talking $25 a paycheck on each account. There's already a $25 automatic transfer on each one so I only need to transfer the other ones. And then I'm not touching them. Vacation $$ will be budgeted for and taken out of debit account unless there is a reason to do credit card. Credit cards: closing an account this month which will remove a payment. :)
4. Health: I am going to be trying to lose weight. I'd like to lose 4 to 5 pounds a month. Part of the attempt to do this will be walking 3 to 5 times a week for 30 to 45 minutes each time. Also- soda is limited to 1 a day... no carry overs and no doubling up if I didn't have one the day before.
And... finally...
5. Taking and making the time for the stuff that matters. :) 'nuff said.
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